Hi everyone, or anyone who is reading these blogs. I hope they have been insightful, and inspirational to you. This particular blog is entitled, “A Different Perspective ”
So far you’ve heard just about all that is going on in this journey from my own perspective, and so today we are going to hear from my wife’s perspective on the goings on since December 22. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I do, and please keep Patty in your prayers. Personally, I think she is an anointed, prolific writer. If you’d like to hear more from her, she has her own blog site entitled: beaprudentwife.blogspot.com
Here it is, enjoy!
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
This was the scripture of the day on December 22, 2012. Why is that significant? It was the day I got married to a man I had loved for 10 years…What a day full of joy and happiness! Not just for us either we were told that it was the wedding of the year. So Spirit filled that we had couples repeating vows to one another in re-dedication to each other. Both Marty and I were filled with so much joy and anticipation about our future. Nothing was impossible for us. Even as we headed to Monterey and San Francisco for our honeymoon, we were already planning our future together.
Then, on January 15, 2013, our lives changed. My new husband was admitted into the hospital for a bowel obstruction. He went into emergency surgery the next day to remove a tumor that turned out to be a cancerous. Forever etched in my mind, is the day the “doctor on duty” came into the hospital room and told us. Have you ever had the wind knocked out of you? Well… that’s how it felt.
For the first 5 minutes I think we did not say anything, our brains were trying hard to process the word CANCERâ€¦ then came tears, fear, panicâ€¦ you name it. My thoughts??REALLY GOD!?!?!?!? HOW COULD THIS HAVE HAPPENED!!!! WE JUST GOT MARRIED!!!! I WAITED 10 YEARS FOR WHAT??? TO BE A WIDOW IN A MONTH?!?!?!? GOD HOW COULD YOU DO THIS???
Marty was visibly devastated, but he dealt with it differentlyâ€¦ where I explodeâ€¦ he implodes… he got real quietâ€¦ ok does that mean Iâ€™m going to die? So much for all of our future plans Pattyâ€¦ no hope nowâ€¦
In what seemed like a matter of moments, the news spread¦ everything is a whirlwind from there¦ Marty, upset at me for exploding and telling our friends, me, unable to keep this new quiet¦ I can’t deal with this in secret I thought¦ We need prayer, we need people to pray for us That’s all I could think of… We need to pray.
I had sent a text message to Pastor Kevin and he came over and was a support for us. Our friends, Dave & Tina, who had been part of our wedding, came that night and were a calming presence in the midst of this storm. Night fell¦ some sense of calm was restored we resolved to not let this separate us.
Next morning, with the news still fresh in our minds, like a bad dream that didn’t go away. We got an email from one of our pastors whose wife was diagnosed with cancer 5 yrs agoâ€¦ she is now cancer free. His encouragement along with the encouragement and love of others kept us goingâ€¦
When Marty was first admitted into the hospital I visited the little chapel they had there. There was something comforting about going in there… like running into the arms of my mother when I was hurt… only here it was the arms of my heavenly Father. This time I went in there, angry, confused, honestly not knowing what to think or how to feel. I kneeled down in one of the pews, bowed my head and just wept. “Lord, I just don’t know what You are doing here? I don’t think I can do this…”
After a while, I heard the Lord whisper, I will not leave you comfortless, this thing is from me… I am entrusting this to you, take hold of it, accept it as a gift, for I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
That was the verse He had given me on the day of my wedding… Yes, but could my heart rest in that? The Lord was challenging me… do you believe? If my plans for you are good, then how can this be bad? Would I give you the desire of your heart then snatch it away? Would I make you the wife of a man who loves Me and not allow you to enjoy the benefits of that? My eyes teared up again… of course not Lord, You are always good, always loving, just, righteous and full of mercy…
So now… today… 5 wks into this trial… my heart is at peace. I have seen the Lord move in miraculous ways already. Marty has healed from his surgery in an amazing way. He even had his first chemo treatment today. What I see in him… is courage and strength. The Lord says that there is a time for every purpose under heaven … I have learned more about my husband in these last few weeks than I would have if this had not happened.
The Lord is binding us together through this… like that verse says… a 3 fold cord is not easily broken. He is teaching me how to encourage and support him… help him in ways I could not have imagined. He is showing me how special my husband is and how to love him completely. I am a work in progress… Can I hear an Amen! That’s why I named my blog a prudent wife… cause that is what HE is teaching me to be as I trust Him in this trial. He makes all things beautiful in HIS time.
til next time
What a beautiful picture, and great insight my beloved!
Aww Patty…your post gave me the chills and put tears in my eyes. Thank you so much sharing your heart and giving us all insight into your lives. It’s so amazing to me how God will test us and try us with the storms of this life…not because He wants to torture us and make us miserable, but because He loves us. This verse is one of my favorites, reminding me that God does have a plan and a purpose for every single thing we go through this side of heaven. How He is the One in full and complete control and the One orchesting them by bringing them all to pass. Being with God in the storm truley is so much greater than being absolutely anywhere in the entire world without Him and I pray the Lord continues to use both of you in this difficult season….to encourage others and bring Him glory. ❤
Patty really is a gifted writer, she just needs encouragement!