Inside the Perfect Storm

This is the day that the Lord has made, and I will rejoice in it”  Psalm 118:24

This is the very first Daily Blog that will journal my thoughts and walk with God through what has become the biggest trial of my life.

Twenty Four days  ago I ended up in the hospital where my whole world would be turned upside down.   God would take me on a journey that would become a Marker Stone and a reminder to me of His Greatness and how in His great love that the God who created the heavens and the earth and who ‘formed me, and knew me while I was yet in my mother’s womb’ would take the time to spend with me, up close, personal, that at the completion of this time, I would be like a reflecting pool of His love, hope, promise for me.  He has compelled me to walk with Him and to ‘taste and see that He is good’

I invite you through this blog to join me as I share daily insights as to what and how God is working in more of Himself into my life.

My Pastor, Steve Mays shared last Sunday morning about his own medical journey, Four exasperating surgeries on his back that have changed his whole life and has brought him to clearer understanding of the fellowship between God and him.  Pastor Steve said about these repeated trials that: “I have a broken body, but not a broken spirit” .  To me, it says that even though my flesh may react to this closeness with God in a way that makes living in this body at sometimes miserable, it has not broken my spirit, my faith has become stronger in it.

Such a perspective would become to me a daily challenge, not to lose heart.  Ultimately, God alone has authority over it all.

Although I can’t begin to compare my medical issue with anyone else’s , I can say this, that I can see through this trial that God is clearly at work in areas of my faith that I once thought were solid and secure.

I’ve learned to see  that a physical trial brings on the ever ongoing battle between the flesh and the spirit into a more clearer picture.  Ultimately, the flesh will do whatever it needs to do to get the most attention, and uses pain as a tool.  However God is teaching me that it is my spirit that he is building up in faith not my physical flesh.  ‘He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world’.   Oh how the flesh always wants its way and yet it must succumb to the authority of God.

I think of my friends Margaret and James who recently have had their surgeries.  I encourage them to look at this time in a very special way, that they not rush themselves into praying that God would get them out of it as fast as possible.

God has a time perfected purpose in the entire trial.  From the onset, to the middle of it, to the end of it.  Hang on, cling to the Lord, hold His hand and walk with Him in it, the result will be peace, comfort, healing.

There is a time when we get antsy and bored with the daily routines of recovery.   Remember, it isn’t all about the physical healing, God is working a greater work giving your spirit a much needed time out of renewing and refreshing; something that the flesh in physical healing can’t figure out.

The days the times, are they not all appointed by God?  And if so then how can I neglect so great an exhortation as this scripture: “This is the ‘day that the Lord has made, and I will be glad in it”.

I recall Pastor Greg Laurie using the quote from Jesus that “In this world you shall have tribulation, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world

Greg said that “we are either going to be in a trial, or we will be coming out of a trial”  And so wherever we are, in it or coming out of it, be assured that you’re not going through it alone, God is in the middle of it.

Satan would like you to think that it is all a big accident, that there is no hope, to just keep moving along.   But wait, these trials are not accidents, they are Divine appointments; they are spiritual Doctor’s checkups.  Be still and know that I am the Lord.’

For some, the trial may seem greater, for others lighter.   Either way, know this; that God is working in a greater faith during the trial that, although not seen;  yet will develop a  more stronger,  more believable trust in His work through us.

“Faith is the substance hoped for and the evidence of things not seen”

So far, I like to look at this trial  as an ‘in house’ personal classroom experience’ with Jesus Himself as tutor.   Kind of refreshing isn’t it?  After all who wouldn’t  want to have Jesus, Himself as a personal tutor?

For those of you who know the whole medical history of my trial, thank you for your prayers, they were greatly felt and appreciated, so bear with me as in the first few blogs I relay details of the physical parts of this trial of faith.  For those of you who don’t know the whole scene, welcome and please keep your prayers coming.

In a nutshell, for now, about 25 days ago this journey of faith began  after what would be the happiest day on earth when on December 22, 2012 I would marry the love of my life, Patty.   I am so thankful that God in His providence worked this detail out, and brought Patty into my life!

I can honestly say that,  without Patty by my side,  this medical part would be extremely difficult to accept and endure.  She has brought the warmth, comfort, encouragement of hoping and trusting in God’s Word that has made the difference.  She can often be heard saying to me, “Marty, take God at His Word, He would never bring us this far to falter!”

As clear as day I can recall being wheeled into surgery to remove a mass between my colon and my appendix. I remember a few days after the operation, how the doctor came to my room and said to Patty and I, “Mr. Martinez, you have cancer”.   This was after what would be just a horrific surgery, can you imagine?

As my wife Patty and I sat in silence, not quite sure what or how to react to this news, I really didn’t have any words to say.  All I could think of is ‘maybe this isn’t really happening, I must be on some strong meds!”   And yet, as it began to sink in, I accepted the news and yet an overwhelming part of me was still full of hope, that God didn’t bring me this far to now just fade away.    What about the promise of my bride, our future, our hopes?  Would you God now take it all away?

I have to admit, I was mad at God.  And He assured me that it was okay, I didn’t understand what He was doing because my ‘mustard seed of faith‘ was being tested, and through this would grow, and grow, and become a testimony unto Him for others.

God was still in control of my life.  He had not changed His thoughts towards me.  The question would be, did I still believe all the things He taught me, while I was healthy as much now that I was afflicted?

Was I ready to live out one of my favorite Scriptures:

” For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord”. 1

Every word of this Scripture would be tested upon me.

Oh, I have read these verses many times before; even had ministered  these words to many saints; but now God had brought me into the classroom of experience to give me a clearer and deeper meaning of what it means, that wherever I go, whatever condition I am in, God is there. And if I believe that then all that God is also is there.

In the coming days, (Lord willing)  I will be sharing the depths and heights of this ‘classroom’ learning that God has seen fit for me to be taught by Him that in it all, I would be nearer to Him, again; I apologize for the length of this particular blog, but as you can see there is much to be said about this amazing journey with the Lord!

Thank you God, for this special time of learning from You.  Just as You have removed the things that were in the way, the things that though outwardly seemed strong, were actually weak, that through this trial, You are not afraid to touch me and bring a complete healing in this body, after all, this is Your temple, and You Jesus have no sickness.  I wait for You daily at Your gates, to walk with You and as You give me utterance, allow me to share the things You will teach me and share them with others through this blog.   To You alone be the glory, in Jesus Name, Amen.

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18 Responses to Inside the Perfect Storm

  1. Patty says:

    My wonderful husband… I will be walking along side you and God will carry us through this together.

  2. Gina Otjen says:

    That is one of the most wonderful things I’ve ever read. Our Lord and Savior is awesome. Marty, thank you for sharing your journey with us. I am blown away.

    • isaiah432013 says:

      Hi Gina,
      Thank you for your kind words of support and encouragement; Patty and I are overwhelmed with the support and prayers of the saints. I hope your continue to join us in this daily blog as we walk together in awe at what God is and will be doing for His glory. There will be a new addition to the blog site of interest that will include a ‘Prayer Widget’. A place where visitors to the site can request their own, or someone they know prayer needs and watch how the Holy Spirit links up these needs and moves in a very powerful way.

      Again, thank you for the love and prayers.
      In His love,
      Marty

  3. Chip says:

    Wow Marty! Didn’t realize you were such the elegant writer! For us who have not gone through such a sickness as yourself, I can only say thank you for sharing such a trial that you are going through. Your testimony of God’s love bro will be remembered by me and others whenever the Lord sees fit to challenge our faith as he has yours. As you battle through this be comforted by the fact your cafe duties will be waiting for you to return sir. Lord be with you.

    • isaiah432013 says:

      Hi Chip,
      What a delightful joy it is to receive your response to the first blog. I will be posting one daily, so when you are able feel free to read, reply, and if you have any prayer requests, be looking on the blog site for a new ‘Prayer Widget’. It is a place where you can ask for prayer for yourself or someone you know and watch as the Holy Spirit links your request with the many other visitors to the site. Again thank you for the love and the prayers!

      In His love,
      Marty

  4. F. Kay Grochowaski says:

    This is the day the Lord hath made…..my favorite verse. It says it all….if you trust, you can rejoice. May God bless you on this journey….I know he has you in his hands….HIS will be done.
    Much love to you both. Kay

    • isaiah432013 says:

      Hi Kay,
      Thank you for your prayers and support towards Patty and myself during this ‘Perfect Storm’. I encourage you and those you know who could be inspired by all that God is doing in this to follow us along this ‘Berean Road’. Please note that the site will be adding a ‘Prayer Widget’ where those entering the site will be able to submit their own prayer requests; and by so doing establish a ‘chain’ of prayer warriors to intercede to God, not just for us, but you and yours also.

      May the Lord bless and keep you in His love,
      Marty

  5. How blessed you are, the both of you. You are now husband and wife, what a joy. My dear brother and sister, count it all joy. You are on the front seat of God’s eternal kingdom. While you may not understand or see it right now, you are in a perfect place to see how God is using your pain and suffering for His glory and to add to His kingdom. “For to you, it has been granted for Christ’s sake, not only to believe in Him, but also to suffer for His sake,” Phil 1:29 NASB. How precious is the place God has placed you both? And I know, for I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect if until the day of Christ Jesus, Phil. 1:6. As you go forth on this journey, there will be many opportunities you will question the very things you believe and how you see Jesus Christ. And yet His Spirit whom has embedded God’s Word on the walls of your heart will give you a time to reflect and be comforted, find peace and the joy that only He can provide you. It is at that moment the Holy Spirit reveals a deeper understanding, divine knowledge of His character, His power, His comfort, and His love for you than you have known up to this point, . So walk side by side with Him morning and night and allow Him to see your hearts. For in my heart this I know, He is not done with both of you. We all wait with great excitement and expectation of what God is doing in your lives for His glory and Kingdom. I love you brother and I know you are exactly where God wants you, in His arms.

    Bobby Hendricks

    • isaiah432013 says:

      Hi Bob,
      Thank you for your encouragement and support. It’s a thrill to have you come alongside us in this journey. Keep following the blog as i will post one per day. There should be a new blog in later today.
      The Lord bless you and keep you, and your family.
      Loving you in Christ,
      Marty

  6. Bobby Hendricks says:

    How blessed you are, the both of you. You are now husband and wife, what a joy. My dear brother and sister, count it all joy. You are on the front seat of God’s eternal kingdom. While you may not understand or see it right now, you are in a perfect place to see how God is using your pain and suffering for His glory and to add to His kingdom. “For to you, it has been granted for Christ’s sake, not only to believe in Him, but also to suffer for His sake,” Phil 1:29 NASB. How precious is the place God has placed you both? And I know, for I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect if until the day of Christ Jesus, Phil. 1:6. As you go forth on this journey, there will be many opportunities you will question the very things you believe and how you see Jesus Christ. And yet His Spirit whom has embedded God’s Word on the walls of your heart will give you a time to reflect and be comforted, find peace and the joy that only He can provide you. It is at that moment the Holy Spirit reveals a deeper understanding, divine knowledge of His character, His power, His comfort, and His love for you than you have known up to this point, . So walk side by side with Him morning and night and allow Him to see your hearts. For in my heart this I know, He is not done with both of you. We all wait with great excitement and expectation of what God is doing in your lives for His glory and Kingdom. I love you brother and I know you are exactly where God wants you, in His arms.

  7. John says:

    May the Shalom of HaShem come upon you and Patty in this time! We love you and continue to pray for you. Exciting to follow you in this journey.

  8. Peggy Mitrano says:

    As a fellow survivor, married to an incredible caregiver, we will be praying for you.

    • isaiah432013 says:

      Thank you, it sure sounds good to be a ‘fellow survivor’, and thank God He has given me Patty to be my caregiver.
      The Lord bless you, and keep you both.
      Marty
      P.S. Pastor Steph, thank you for encouraging Patty through this.

  9. Kenny Hart says:

    Thank you both for sharing your walk with the body at this time.It is so wonderful that you have become one through Him who is faithful and true. You are always on my heart and in my prayers waiting and watching to see what God is going to do next.Jer 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. 12 Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. 13 And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you, says the Lord,. The word of the Lord for you stand on it and it will see you through this time and forever.
    Love you both, for the Lord is near and will never leave you or forsake you.Your brother in Him forever and eternity thank you for always being there for me in times of need.I am always here for you anytime day or night.In His love Kenny.XoxoXoxO

  10. Tom Nance-Ulrich says:

    I remember years ago being students in the “School of Ministry” together. Now you get to take the advanced course. Thanks or being willing to share your life and thoughts with us. Perfect timing, huh Bro, just when you needed Patty the most she has been able to not just be your best friend but now your wife able to go through all this experience together. Remember Eph. 6 all we’re called to do is stand and pray. Keep standing my Brother. Now to a greater extent than ever before you will be able to minister those you visit in hospitals, as you have truly been and will be “one with them”. As Peggy is able to say to you, you know from personal experience what people are going through. Just as God the Son can now say from personal experience he knows what it’s like to be human and to suffer as one, you too will be able to relate like never before. Thanks again for sharing with us. Looking forward to going through this next adventure together. Much Love and Shalom. Tom Nance-Ulrich (Mary too)

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